I met up with Morgan at Starbucks. It was nice, we sat and talked and I chain-smoked. He was going over to Homero's for video games and movies, and invited me to come too. I immediately balked at the idea. I have nothing against Homero, but I have this wall against hanging out with new people at new places. I don't know why; the idea is just very unappealing to me. Dan and Whitney were going to be there too. I know Dan, we played Left 4 Dead together, and I've known Whitney since 8th grade. But I just felt like I was going to be intruding. It's their thing, I can't just walk in. I knew that they wouldn't mind, or at least that they probably wouldn't mind. But I went anyway, because Morgan wanted me to, and I honestly had nothing better to do. I know when I'm just being stupid.

It was okay. We didn't really do anything, just hung out. I didn't really feel awkward either. But I still felt out of place. I felt like a loser. I hate feeling like a loser. I wish my wisdom score was lower sometimes.

I just feel so stupid and silly right now. I hate it. I've been drifting for the past couple weeks. Nothing touched me. I was in a very calm place. Now I've left the place, and sunken into a strange hole. I don't work until wednesday. What am I going to do with myself?

I had a nice day.
-Woke up and layed in bed for a good hour.
-Got up and ate some cereal.
-Cleaned up my room and finally unpacked everything.
-Brushed up on my piano skills. Not that they're any good to begin with. I learned the chords for Regina Spektor's 'The Call'.
-Drove up to Chipotle' and hung out with Yma and Morgan for half an hour.
-Picked up Baby Joe and her friend at school.
-Went up to Studio for work.

Now I'm home.
I'm enjoying my time at Studio Movie Grill. Yesterday was okay, I didn't really know anyone working. Today my trainer was Aidan, and we got along pretty well. There was only one moment where he brought up Maddie, but I quickly changed subjects. He understood that I didn't really want to get into it with him. Aidan and Maddie used to date.
I worked three movies. Dance Flick's first showing was canceled because no one showed up[understandably]. Angels and Demons only had four groups of people, which was super easy. I took a smoke break while waiting for that long movie to come out. Aidan and I completely forgot about Dance Flick's second showing though, but only two couples showed up for it, and we got them as soon as the trailers started.
Then all hell broke loose. A guy and his trainee were working Ghosts of Girlfriends Past, and the trainee was fucking everything up. I don't quite understand how he switched credit cards around, which makes me worry that I'll do it too. But I don't think I will. So Aidan and I were trying to help them when Aidan looks and me and says, "Oh shit, we forgot about 8!"[Theater 8 was Dance Flick.] So while Aidan helps them, I go and pick up the checks from Dance Flick and close them out all by myself. Granted, it was only two checks, but I felt good about it. Plus this girl Taylor was watching me do it and I think she was slightly jealous. She's also training, but I don't think she gets to do as much as I do. But I don't know. Then I had nothing to do, so I basically watched the last 30 minutes of Dance Flick. It doesn't look too bad.

And then I headed home. All in all, not a bad day. I think I would've an okay amount of tips if I hadn't been training. Unfortunately I'll be training tomorrow too, so I hope I don't get any crowded movies. Just because I won't be getting the kick-ass tips from it, haha.
Then hopefully that'll be my last day training, and I won't work the rest of the weekend so I can go to San Marcos for Maddie's birthday! But we'll see.