I met up with Morgan at Starbucks. It was nice, we sat and talked and I chain-smoked. He was going over to Homero's for video games and movies, and invited me to come too. I immediately balked at the idea. I have nothing against Homero, but I have this wall against hanging out with new people at new places. I don't know why; the idea is just very unappealing to me. Dan and Whitney were going to be there too. I know Dan, we played Left 4 Dead together, and I've known Whitney since 8th grade. But I just felt like I was going to be intruding. It's their thing, I can't just walk in. I knew that they wouldn't mind, or at least that they probably wouldn't mind. But I went anyway, because Morgan wanted me to, and I honestly had nothing better to do. I know when I'm just being stupid.
It was okay. We didn't really do anything, just hung out. I didn't really feel awkward either. But I still felt out of place. I felt like a loser. I hate feeling like a loser. I wish my wisdom score was lower sometimes.
I just feel so stupid and silly right now. I hate it. I've been drifting for the past couple weeks. Nothing touched me. I was in a very calm place. Now I've left the place, and sunken into a strange hole. I don't work until wednesday. What am I going to do with myself?
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hell, i'm a leo and i still feel exactly like that in social situations. but don't feel bad for being a pisces, i adore you people.
I have days like that too. It'll be ok though :) I'm a fishie too, I understand completely.
See! This is how I always feel! Like when you guys want me to come party at the house of someone I don't even know. Not only do I feel awkward, but the ppl that don't know me feel awkward, too. Partly because I'm the kind of person that's not going to talk if I'm not in the mood, so then ppl who don't know me just think I'm rude or not interested in them. Which is not true at all, but I know that's how I come off.
that has nothing to do with you being a pisces. that's just you being you