As November rolls around, I am once again reminded of this John Mayer song. The song is basically about how he finds a relationship to have for the winter. I understood the song, but it wasn't until last November that I actually got it.
Around this time last year, I drove to Houston and joined my friends at Starbucks. It was chilly, but nice to see everyone.
It was me, Morgan and Armand, Misha and Ron, and Vicki and Josh. I was surrounded by couples. New couples at that. Vicki and Josh had been together all summer, and their summer romance was now turning into a winter one. Misha and Morgan both found their respective others a week or so before this night. But they all lasted till spring. They were warm and cozy in their love cocoons. Even when Yma came back in December, she promptly got with Charles. Then April rolled around. Morgan and Armand broke up, because on a basic level they both understood that it had just been a winter romance. And Yma and Charles broke up, for similar reasons. Vicki and Josh started having troubles then, because they didn't know. Or maybe they did know, and just chose to ignore it. They've both got Aries in them, so it's only natural. And Misha and Ron made it. That makes me happy. Happy to see that a winter thing can survive.
But the whole point is that it's happening again. Vicki's with Dan now. Morgan's with Chris, and that's going to last till at least spring, I can already tell. Yma's itching to find someone, just as Faraz is. They're cold, and are looking for warmth. Even the Texas State kids. They're all looking for something right now.
But what about me?
Am I cold? I enjoy the cold. And I feel like I enjoy my singleness. But have I deluded myself into feeling this way? That I'm okay with it? Is this a survival tactic? I trick myself into feeling happy, just so I don't have to feel sad. Winter has never brought out the urge to be with someone. Spring usually does. And I feel like spring is a good time to start a relationship. Look at Maddie and Drake. They're good together.
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