"Damn community college. Damn myself for losing my tenuous grip on the elemental balance. At this point in my life I have no earth or fire in myself, two elements that took a lot of work for me to get into. During that first year at Cy-fair, I jumped into the water and sunk. I didn't drown, if only because water is my element, but if I had been anything else, I think that depression would've gotten the best of me. But because it was my 'home town', I survived. Now I've surfaced, and I have to learn to live on land again. But I think I can do it. I think I can do it, because I want to do it." -Me, May 24, 2009.
Things are better. I have air in my body again. I have my feet on the earth. And I have my hands near the fire. I need need need to focus on it more though.
Ugh, I'm going to bed. I'll ponder on this more tomorrow.
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